From time to time I remember the good old days of NJFM. I think those were my happiest blogging days. I still have several blogs online, but NJFM was always my favorite. Why? Because I was able to just be me. I didn’t worry much about SEO and political correctness; I was just me. As I learned things about online writing, I shared it here on my blog.
Sharing here on NJFM was purely for selfish reasons. As I’ve mentioned before, NJFM started because I needed one place to keep my notes of all that I learned. I needed a place where I could always find things if I needed them. The blogging format offered the organization and searchability I was looking for. Apparently, other like-minded folks found my ramblings to be useful. As such NJFM evolved into a community.
Things Changed on Several Fronts
When NJFM was born my children were young. They were in elementary school so when the school bus picked them up, I began my writing day. My writing day ended when I heard the school bus pulling up to the corner stop. I did manage to squeeze some writing in late in the evening after all was quiet, but the predominance of my writing occurred while they were in school.
As they grew up, their schedules changed and so did mine. The odd thing about being a parent is you realize your children are getting older, but on the flip side you also witness your own parents getting older. Your children become more independent and parents less so. You enter yet another phase of life.
Changing to Accommodate Life’s Changes
With the changes in my personal life, I found it increasingly difficult to maintain a writing schedule. My ability to squirrel away quiet time to allow my inner flow to flow was nearly impossible. Not being able to express myself creatively through writing, I opted for a more physical expression in the form of refurbishing furniture.
For some reason the time I spent engaged in the physical act of hammering, sawing, painting and using power tools was given more respect than the time I spent sitting quietly in a room contemplating and writing. While engaged in the act of refurbishing, I was allowed to complete project after project with minimal interruption. However, my time spent sitting at a computer was fair game for interruption. Rather than fight the system, instead of writing I worked on furniture.
And Life Changed Again
In the past few months life changed yet again. It changed in such a fashion that I could now find that quiet time. I can find uninterrupted time to contemplate, visualize and write. The funny thing is, I didn’t put two and two together until one day as words were coming to me (when you’re really in the flow, you don’t search for words, they come to you), I was prompted to review my journal. After reviewing entries from the last two years, I was able to connect the dots. I started losing interest in blogging right around the time when a few life situations occurred and my time was no longer mine. Being knee deep in the situation, I couldn’t see the forest for the trees.
Recently, ideas have been popping into my head. It’s been a long time since I wanted to sit in front of the computer to actually write something. When the urge hits, I b-line to the computer and put my ideas down. It’s a good feeling. The flow isn’t quite where it used to be, but if I “Don’t fight the feeling,” as Flip Wilson’s character Geraldine used to say, I’m sure things will begin to flow freely again. In the meanwhile, I’ll take what I can get.
This whole long story is the reason why I won’t officially bury NJFM. The Internet has changed quite a bit since I last posted on this blog regularly and it will continue to change. NJFM, however, is like my pair of comfy bedroom slippers. Things will change, but at a pace that’s comfortable for me.
What direction will NJFM take? Who knows. I’ll let my inner flow determine that.
Trying Something New
Below is an audio of the above post. I haven’t quite figured out how to use audio editing software as yet, so this is the raw first and only take.